blast from the past

He looks so gaunt; he already got the lanky profile but this new state of him so not his usual self.
I thought I’ve prepared myself for the worst ever since I received news about him the other day.
I’ve guard myself really well when I heard it, not a flick of emotion shown on my face.. well,I should consider acting as my fall back career.
But all the preparation was for nothing; he still caught me off guard
I can feel my eyes get warm and misty, I fight it...I don’t want to cry in front of him.

I recalled our conversation couple years back when he told me that he’s on trial
When I told him to stop coz I think he had tried enough, he just said “don’t worry I can take care of my self, I know when to stop!”

Apparently he was wrong.