contemplating

Lately i've been contemplating lots of things, but to be honest i do contemplate a lots, but most of the time it so focus on 1 thing, not like recently.

i have many stuff going on from personal life, career choice, finance to friends.
I made quite a choice couple months back ...and i still don't know whether i'm making the right one.

I'm confuse, been through many stage right now, emotional downturn you name it.
try to keep my head clear but no matter how hard i try once in a while it keep coming back clouded everything, and when it's all clouded ...i just can't think straight.

i'm a strong believer that you always have an option no matter what and now i feel that i need to eat that word alive hahaha, coz seems like a dead end, never ending circle. I choose 1 option today, i realy hope it not backfired.
well, i know each choice hold its own consequences,but I’m really am tired of judging and analyzing it. I wish I can have my reckless day and being forgiven afterward but even me can’t make my help to do that.

Someone whose so dearly to me once asked me to stop analyzing and just follow the flow, stop making what if scenario and actually just enjoy the ride…I tried …I did tried, but somehow during my alone moment …I keep coming back hahaha

I’m not making any sense now…I just want to babble out