Ceha

mixed of everything that i found on my journey

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Eyes thru my soul

It’s been a while….I forgot how it’s feel and remembering not many people can do those act to me I’m practically out of practice.

Last week I’ve escape a little bit from my chaotic workload, and managed secure my self one day leave following my business trip.
I used it for lazy exploring & roaming around with my lil’ bro in Solo.

During one of our pillow talk, he (among only 2 people so far that can read me thru ) describe precisely what I felt & feel. It just came out of the blue, but it shocked me a lot…I mean I just wondering was it so obvious??!!
I feel like an open book, without cover and sooo naked

Yes, I have my roller coaster ride lately….it’s adventurous and I keep on hoping that it will be more interesting in the future (I kept lots of finger crossed for this one ;-)), I guess it just showed that I’m having a good time but for other things it just never on the surface, and he made me realize how vulnerable I was or maybe still….

I hate it when people can see right thru me, it feels like someone intervening & playing around with my head, but that night I realize I do need it sometimes.

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Mayday..mayday

They talked about it, we talked about it, and even I talk it thru with my inner self
But none of that prepared me from what I felt yesterday night.

I texted desperate sms to my guardian angel asking for back up hehehe