contemplating

Lately i've been contemplating lots of things, but to be honest i do contemplate a lots, but most of the time it so focus on 1 thing, not like recently.

i have many stuff going on from personal life, career choice, finance to friends.
I made quite a choice couple months back ...and i still don't know whether i'm making the right one.

I'm confuse, been through many stage right now, emotional downturn you name it.
try to keep my head clear but no matter how hard i try once in a while it keep coming back clouded everything, and when it's all clouded ...i just can't think straight.

i'm a strong believer that you always have an option no matter what and now i feel that i need to eat that word alive hahaha, coz seems like a dead end, never ending circle. I choose 1 option today, i realy hope it not backfired.
well, i know each choice hold its own consequences,but I’m really am tired of judging and analyzing it. I wish I can have my reckless day and being forgiven afterward but even me can’t make my help to do that.

Someone whose so dearly to me once asked me to stop analyzing and just follow the flow, stop making what if scenario and actually just enjoy the ride…I tried …I did tried, but somehow during my alone moment …I keep coming back hahaha

I’m not making any sense now…I just want to babble out

Mau marah!!!

Turn out last saturday wasn't my day after all

pas pagi2nya sih berjalan baik2 aja, seneng banget malah kumpul ama anak2 di Apt-nya venny...pertama kalinya g dibikinin sarapan ama jeunk venny, thank you ya plus she so kind driving me to BTN dewi sartika, walaupun sempet muter2 due to my stupidity (maaf ya...tau kan kalo ama jalan g tuh suka clueless abies)

walaupun org BTN-nya nyebelin plus ditambah suku bunga KPA yang mencekik tapi mood g seneng banget bisa bareng2 my best girlfriends in the world itu.
ke Mangga dua, seseruan belanja-belanji sampai cici penjualnya ngira kita dari luar kota saking ramenya hahaha
plus seru banget cerita2 kita during lunch, priceless banget deh liat mukanya Indra pas denger, trus pake ngasih2 kode nga jelas itu.

Nga disangka malemnya BUSUK banget!
udah dicuekin pas dinner for something that i don't even know (guess next time i should be just sit still and be quiet)then when we're back to Albert house just to find his neighbour already screw my car!

g kaget banget pas masuk belokannya rumah albert only to see there's another car vertically park right in front of my car and his neighbour dalam keadaan mabuk sibuk nyariin orang2.
ya tentunya kita turun semua (kita semua pake mobilnya gow untuk makan malem berhubung mobil dia gede dan kayanya nga seru aja harus konvoy 3 mobil)
ternyata mobil g yang diparkir di depan rumahnya albert agak menghalangi mobil tetangga gilanya itu untuk masuk ke garasinya.
ya sudah yg pertama g lakukan adalah mengecek bagian depan mobil g, dan g bernafas lega karena nga ada yg lecet. Tapi baru mau tenang ternyata pas g cek samping mobil, ternyata si tetangga gila yang mabok ini udah nyongkel handle mobil g aja lho. walhasil handle bagian pengemudi g terlepas dari tempatnya alias udah bolong gitu aja.
Gila ...berasa marahnya udah sampe Ubun2 kepala g, yang g lakukan cuman menarik napas panjang sambil frantically mencet2 hp g...padahal g udah nga kepikiran mo telp siapa.
Iya g ngaku juga salah, kurang mundur dikit yang membuat dia nga bisa dengan sekali attempt masuk rumahnya tapi kan dia nga bisa dengan begitu aja ngerusakin mobil g donk!!!!
kalo g nga mandang albert, nita ama anaknya ....udah nga tau deh apa jadinya. mana tuh tetangga gila masih aja berkomat kamit nga jelas.

pokoknya busuk banget deh!!
traumatis abis....not ever deh g maen2 kedaerah itu lagi
yang bikin g nga abis pikir, itu kompleks di kelapa gading yang harusnya penghuninya
ada pendidikannya lah, or at least ada sopan santunnya.

Moga2 si bapak tetangga yang mabok itu diingetkan ama orang lain atau apalah, biar dia tau betapa nga enaknya punya mobil dicongkel orang.

ps. hiks....jadinya mobil g bagian depan di posisi pengemudi nga bisa dibuka dari luar.