Moment of Truth

I finally arrived on the intersection which lead to so many different road, which challenge my entire view point, forcing me to actually see what matters the most.
and to be honest ..I'm scared...this whole thing scare the hell out of me.
I know if only I've been given an extra time and space, i would probably flew.

I keep asking myself have i made the right decision, have I aware of all the consequences, have I exercising all the possibilities....or even to a basic question "have I listen and probe well"

what i want and what i believe is contradicting in so many ways...ways that i can't imagine before. they fighting inside my head...my brain say go to the left, while my heart ..(is it my heart??) say go to the right. all my logical and rational things says "get out of there...this is enough..this is the limit..this is your threshold".
but a gentle or softer ;p side of me says "are u sure? u probably not gonna feel as intense as this anymore? don't you want to finish it? see how it comes when you finally reach the ultimate goal?, goal that lots of people dreaming of but for somehow it just never crossed on your mind?"

and for once in my life...I just wished i could have someone to decide it for me, coz at least when i look back, reminisce the decision that i've made, i can just easily said "well, it's not mine to decide in the 1st place...i just followed what "X" told me to do"
but unfortunately that's not the case, decision still need to be made, plan need to be plot, and consequences need to be predict.

God give me your strength ... to be brave, to be patient, and to be strong...no matter what.