Ceha

mixed of everything that i found on my journey

Thursday, March 24, 2005

midnite thought

just finished chatting with my bro' and bf...
tried to spare the detail of yesterday craziness, and amazing discovery that i found out today.
have u ever felt flattered and worried at the same time
that's exactly what i'm feeling rite now.
i am flattered!!, there's a people recognize my ability, aware of my achievement but at the same moment i'm also worried...i'm worry they gonna have high expectation toward me and i afraid that they might disappointed (eventhough i know i'll always give my best =p)

got big teleconf. on Tuesday
but before that beijing here i come
have a plane to catch tomr afternoon, destination : Beijing
but i haven't pack any single clothes

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

The Big "D"

a bit chaotic yesterday, at the edge of stress and panic definitely lethal combination.
have to make a Big Decision at least for me, and it cames out as a simple sentence but have tremendous impact on my life.
and my decision was :
" it would be my pleasure to Join ur team in Indonesia "

but to be honest...still feel being pushed, i do still have 3 months to go, so why everything happend so god damn quickly (i'm not cursing =p).

so base on that, next destination would be going back home, well, 85% now positively Indonesia and to be precisely Jakarta.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

"officially missing you"

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why you have to go
cause this pain I feel it won't go away
And today I'm officially missing you


I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you


Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I officially...


All I do is lay around, 2 ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all


Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I-I officially missin?you


Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I officially


Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you


Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I-I'm officially...


It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin?you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I-I'm officially missin? you

** received it thru email from my bf **

Monday, March 21, 2005


HK trainee at the korean BBQ Posted by Hello

dinner


with ernest's family....not all of them ...his brother and his nephew were played the PS2 on the other room, his sister already back home, and the other one behind the camera Posted by Hello


dinner at ernest, his mom really take a time to prepare all those meal  Posted by Hello

one year older....

it's not just me.....not only me...
apparently lots of people out there have the same quarter life crisis hahaha...
'rite on my bday, received one email from my friend's , she's currently in taipei for traineeship, been only separated two days for bday, she shared her thought 'bout this coming bday..
YAP....she felt it also, uneasy-ness, wanna get over it soon or even don't wanna single soul remind u of it.
but the clock still ticking, and it's coming
despite the all kinna mixed of feeling and thought that i have recently....
surprisingly i felt good that day, have my bf called me in the middle of the night, my lil' bro sent me a nice sms, and received tons of calls, text and email from friends around the world made me smile all day.
really heartwarming to know lots of people think about me on that day.
and the week of celebration just begun.

dinner at Ernest's
out of the blue....one of my aiesecer friend which also my good friend in HK, invited me to have a dinner in his house.....quite rare opportunity to actually experiencing hk cuisine in a local HK house....coz usually we dined out ...so without any hesitation i take the chance.
Ernest's mom is really nice lady, she really pull lot of effort for the dinner, all his family infact.
Ernest only lived with his parents and his older brother , the other member of the family already married and leave the house, but at that night , two of his sister came over....

really felt like having a bday with my own family back home....heard them talking to each other, shared the laughter eventhough I only able to catch one or two words...still amazed me, have those warm feeling, the kind of feeling that come everytime u r having those family moment...i'm babling again =p
thanks for ernest and his family for everything

Korean BBQ dinner
dinner with my HK family ...all trainee ...as always it was awesome...
delicious food, nice company, cozy atmosphere...what else could u asked??

as all the celebration ended...here i am again in front of my computer ....back to realization, back to my random thought.....still have lots of things on my mind...lots of decision to make.
but at least i know whose to turn if i ever needed advise

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

birthday around the corner

maybe just maybe..one of the reason of my uneasiness due to upcoming bday.
first time ever to having it far for home, i think i'll managed it ... lot of celebration this year that i had to celebrated it away from the comfort of my family, friends and familiar surrounding i called home.
the hardest things so far was the Ied Day...and maybe i'm approaching the second hardest : my birthday.
and this coming bday quite a special...my god it's my 25th...i'm old!!!!

nevertheless still have a lot of excitement to come.
decided to celebrate it with my HK trainee family on friday.....the place Korean BBQ

Monday, March 14, 2005

hmmmmm.....

feel bit uneasy lately....for a reason that i didn't know..
weird isn't it?...had random thought on my mind...i guess something should triggered all this thing..but what??
feeling insecure??...kinna lost of direction?? or just one of those times when i need time for my own...
definitely imbalance hehehe

a bit sensitive also....had those excluded feeling....as if everyone being ignorant
but hey..i thought i've been oblivious to those stuff already....apparently i'm NOT...still feel like a slap in the face ..here i am again being a bit unrational heheheh

missed my brother, he always managed to calm me down, giving me a rational point of view, forcing me to see and analyze things on their original proportion, which mean not making a big deal of something SMALL ...love him for that.
supposedly having a long chat tonite, but he's been very busy or....his trying to get me back coz i skipped twice of our chat date??....whatever it is, still love u bro =p

Sunday, March 13, 2005

About Me

Just following the instruction to post something about me.
Indonesian on a journey…That is what I called my self these days….coz am on a journey!!….currently in HK for one year traineeship in Kraft Food limited, but actually counting my days now…since I already been in HK for almost 9 month now….so three months to go…..three months to think and finalized what am going to do next.

Friday, March 11, 2005

"Perchance to dream"

Got extremily lucky last night , one of my friends been invited to watch a performance of footbarn travelling theatre, and she asked me to go along with her...why not.(i thought) it's definitely a new way to spend friday night =p
so there i was....sat on director tribune (very awesome....swear none of us knew that we gonna sat on director place..cool isn't it?..), spent more or less three hours watched stunning performance of 5 william shakespeare creation combined into one.
to be honest i'm not a greatest fan of shakespeare...my knowledge of his worked very limited (some of it i should give credit to hollywood movie of romeo & juliet) but not entirely out of cast either..i know some of the tittle just don't have extensive info about the plot hahahhaha...
back to the performance ..i must say that the whole performance giving me a new perspective of all shakespeare creation....now i kinna want to know more about Macbeth and King Lear ( 2 out of 5 that i only know by name ...not bad ^_^).
but last night i definitely realised that i'm having quite a hard time understanding the dialoque...(the accent kinna mixed between british and french)..i found my self once in a while glance at the subtitle.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

first time

there's always a first time for everything in life ..rite?!!
well, i've done my self proud lately....
finally creating my own weblog...(credit everyone...usually i'm too lazy to write anything =p)
and here i am ...posting to my own weblog for the very first time